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Pablito · 29 July 2026 · ▶ 2:15

The bank transfer

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Three weeks on bupropion. And I have a problem making a bank transfer. I am not joking. I sit here knowing I have a transfer to make. I know how to do it. There is nothing complicated about it. And still I cannot start. I put it off. I set it aside. I circle around it. That is the mechanism: I know what to do — and I cannot start.

Three weeks of medication has not changed that. Maybe it needs another week, maybe two. Or the drug is not the right one for me and the dose or the preparation needs changing. Or this block on execution sits deeper

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