My wife was keeping me at a distance. My chest was tight. My throat too. My feet were trembling. A slight anger and sadness at the same time. I felt lonely in the house, among people. And the scheming started. Maybe social media. Maybe I will publish something there about loops. Maybe that will give me confirmation of my worth from outside. The algorithm told me to look at the centre of the spiral: I desperately need confirmation of my own worth. My wife moves away — worth drops — a compulsion appears to win it back through external
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